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February 20, 2010

It’s been a while so I thought I’d do a bit of catching up.  I found myself a little girl to nanny full time, which is going to help us tremendously! I also sit two boys once a week, which means I make as much as I did before I quit working. Whew! A load off. We will have our savings back in no time. All of that money stress is beginning to melt away.

I don’t write as often as I’d like to, but someday I will have a little more time to write and take photos. For now, I have my hands full, for a good cause. If it didn’t take me so long to write anything, I’d start an income generating blog, but I simply don’t write that fast. Anyhow…more writing as there is more time.

Andor is growing up fast! He almost exclusively speaks in sentences now. He makes up his own games, he is polite and empathetic, and he really likes to help in the kitchen. He has finally started eating food regularly instead of nursing all the time. The guy preferred his nummies much longer than many other babies. He still wakes up a million times at night, but I know that this too shall pass and that I should just be patient. Soon enough he will be a big boy, in his own bed, in his own room and I will be pining for the days when he was so snuggly.

helping mommy with potatoes

I really enjoy my work as a mother. I find it to be far more fulfilling than any other work I have ever attempted. When people say that it’s thankless, I beg to differ. I find it utterly satisfying and I know that my little family appreciates the work that I do. When I’m not tending to the house, Andor, or Cal I find a little time to work out, which, is working! I’m not losing any weight, but my body is starting to take on a little more of a girly shape instead of having that, “I just had a baby” shape. Perhaps I’ll lose a little weight when Andor is done nursing. Some say that some ladies just hang on to a few pounds while they nurse. We’ll see. I’m eating smaller portions and laying off the chocolate, that ought to do something! Other than that I am still taking pictures, just not as many these days because we spend so much time inside, and the lighting stinks.

However, the Spring is around the corner and already we have seen the light! The sun is supposed to shine all week even!

Well, that’s it for now. My time is up.

Money, so they say
January 2, 2010

I’ve posted resolutions before and found that they are only marginally helpful for me. Last year I promised to blog more and lose weight and I have’t done much of either really! This year I have only one resolution and that’s to make a little money!

Money, money, freaking money! We need to build our savings back up! Since I’m not interested in Cal taking another job, and us not seeing him ever again, its up to me! I’m not going back to work, so I’ve been looking around for a nanny position. So far I’ve spoken to one family about possibly caring for their 5 year old daughter. So the possibility is there, it just takes a while.

I’ve been working on the saving money each month thing too. It doesn’t help that it’s so flippin’ cold outside! Our last heating bill was outrageous! I can’t think of much to do to save money on our food bill. We could certainly have vegetarian meals a few times a week and save a little. If we could buy more things in bulk it would help too. I really hope that the garden this summer helps a little bit. I can also hang our clothes to dry outside now that we have a little porch in the back. I still have the lines and clips from the little apartment,, they just need to be hung. We really just need to make more money every month.

And now for something completely different.Andor wants me to come play legos!


Such a good year.
December 26, 2009


I’ve been thinking a lot about what a wonderful year it has been for me and how grateful I am for it.

I got to stay home and be a mother to my little monkey baby. We moved into a bigger space that is much closer to where Cal works so we see him much more. Abra, George, and I organized and implemented a garden with smashing success. I discovered an abandoned community garden a couple of blocks away from the new place that I will get to fill with herbs and salad greens this coming Spring. Abra had her perfect little baby, at home, beautifully and I got to be there! My birthday party was so nice, and the food was great. I made two new friends! This Christmas was by far the best one yet. It was so relaxing and I got to spend it with family.  There are many other things that I can’t think of right now and Andor is calling for me to come play.

Here is to another great year! I love you all and am thankful for you.

September 28, 2009

This summer, originally uploaded by CamilleRynd.

It’s been a while since I’ve written, I suppose that I’m getting used it, but I think about my poor neglected blog all of the time. I’m sure that as Andor gets more independent, I’ll have more time to write. As of now, we spend most of our time out of the house running around parks. He doesn’t like being at the house unless he has a friend with him. We’re working on that.

This summer has been busy busy busy. We have moved from the Pearl, and then moved again. That’s a long story, and I won’t bother telling it. Suffice it to say, we’re happier with our new place and we’ll be staying here for a long while.

Abra had Olivine, a perfect little darling girl. Her birth was beautiful. I got to film and photograph the whole thing. You can see the final moments here
It was utterly beautiful. You can hear me nearly break down, I’m a little wimp for beautiful moments. I love the picture of her big brother holding her in the picture above.

We also went camping for the first time since Andor was born!! It was a blast. Andor had the best time throwing rocks into the river and sleeping in the tent. When we woke up in the morning he looked up and exclaimed, “trees!!” He loved helping me build a fire by gathering sticks and kept a very respectful distance from the flame, commenting, “” again and again. We went hunting for chantrelles but didn’t really end up with much, maybe a gallon. Grandpa Gibson gave us a half a flat because he felt sorry for our sad attempt. We got to spend a little time with him and Andor thought that the chickens were super cool! He spent most of the time there picking berries and eating them. I can’t wait for us to go out again. Cal and I sat and stared at the sky as the stars came out. It was beautiful. I love the quiet of the woods and the majesty of the night sky when it isn’t blotted out by the city lights.

I still have a little pregnancy weight to work off. I may not get rid of it entirely until Andor weans, and that’s fine really. We are finally attempting to night wean. Last night was the first night and Andor was very resistant to the idea. Hopefully tonight will be better. I won’t wean him entirely until much later though. I just need to get some sleep at night. He wakes up a lot sometimes and I get no rest at all. No bueno.

Anyhow, I’m going to throw myself a birthday party this year. I haven’t EVER had a birthday party and I think it’s time. I get at least one right? I mean, I’ve gone out with friends, etc, but never a real party! I want one!

I look forward to the challenge that this winter will bring trying to keep Andor occupied without going to the park twice a day.

Gotta go or I won’t have time for a bath!!

March 5, 2009

We are all going to be moving to Beaverton in 30 days. We have the opportunity to almost triple our living space for just a hundred dollars more a month, and also, we’ll cut almost 3 hours of travel time out of Cal’s day, freeing him up for more time with the family.

This is certainly a bittersweet moment, as I will greatly miss my neighborhood and my neighbors, but the time has come.

So, with that, I have made a list of things that I wish to have to fill my new space and make it a home. If you have any of the following things that you’d like to donate, I will gladly take the off of your hands. It’s not exhaustive, so, if there is something lurking in your storage taking up space that you were going to get rid of that you think I might need, let me know.

I will also be announcing a going away party soon.

Wish List:

Large Stock Pot
Medium pot
Small Pot
Durable Couch
Complete silverware set
Steak Knives
Dry goods containers
Prints and Pictures
Toy Organizing something
Baby bookshelf
Train table
Toddler Bed

Health Care Reform
December 11, 2008

Presi​dent-​elect​ Obama​ has made it clear​ that healt​h care refor​m is one of his top prior​ities​.​ That’​s why the Obama​-​Biden​ Trans​ition​ is askin​g peopl​e to give their​ own thoug​hts and ideas​ for how to fix the syste​m at Healt​h Care Commu​nity Discu​ssion​s all acros​s the count​ry.​

I just signe​d up to host a Commu​nity Discu​ssion​,​ and I thoug​ht you might​ want to come.​ Here are the detai​ls:​

Date and time:​ Decem​ber 20th at 11:​00 am
Locat​ion:​920 NW Kearn​ey St. Portl​and Orego​n

There​ will be a space​ for the kids,​ and a paren​t volun​teer to watch​ them!​ 
Pleas​e RSVP as a comment or to my email!

After​,​ we’​re going​ to go carol​ing with the Centr​al Portl​and Famil​ies at 3:​30,​ and you’​re welco​me to join us!

Hope you can make it!

My Life
November 28, 2008


My life has changed so much since Andor was born.

This has been the best year of my life.

I’m happy and fulfilled and greatful.

Thanks to all my friends and family for your love.

November 18, 2008


I am grateful for all the little moments that we have.
The little smiles, the kisses, the excitement, the dancing…

I live in your moment, with you.
Every little discovery you make I make with you.
Every cuddle you give I feel way down in my toes.
Every little sleep smile, and every little wave…

I am grateful.

My Birthday Dinner
November 14, 2008


George took me and the girls (Ocia and Abra) out to dinner for my birthday. We went to Lorenzo’s at 3807 N. Mississippi Avenue of course. I can’t help myself, it’s so good.

Go and eat, really.
If you’ve been before go again.  There have been some really nice changes made to the front of the house.

Go now.



It’s taken so long
October 31, 2008


It’s taken me ten straight years of work to understand and overcome the traumatic events in my childhood and adolescents. I still work, every day, on remaining relaxed and calm. I have learned that your reality is yours, that your life is as you make it, and that much of everything is all in your head.

That doesn’t mean I don’t have triggers.
I do, it’s my family members.

I have stopped talking to everyone in my family, one by one. I believe them to all be trapped, mired in fear and anger and distrust of everything.

I can’t operate around that mentality, as much as I’d like to think that I might help them see that it’s all in their heads. I can’t. That’s for them to realize.

They will probably never understand why I stopped talking to them.
They will probably go on believing that I am crazy and idealistic.
They will probably continue to believe that it’s the end of the world and that there is nothing that can be done about it.

I used to think that way too.
It’s hard to believe that your life can change, or that you can be happy, when you’ve always felt angry and frustrated. You want to lash out, make ugly faces, and try to make other people feel as badly as you are feeling. Most people don’t want to admit that they made mistakes, or that their parents made mistakes, because that would mean that they would need to re-evaluate their own behavior.

It would mean remembering things that are hard to remember; evaluating those memories objectively, and determining the damage that may have been done.

The next step is even harder.

Changing the mind to believe that things can be fine.
Not everything has to be a battle.
Not everything people say is a lie.
Not all conversations are arguments.
Sometimes help is just help, and not an insult to your ability to do it yourself.

All is well.


(Abra took this photo)

Abra took this
October 25, 2008


I have to share this rockin’ pic that Abra took.

She was taking the shot of me taking the shot of myself and Andor.


This is the photo that that I took of Andor and I a split second after Abra took her picture. 


Keep up… will you..
October 23, 2008


So many things to catch up on, where will I begin? My shift key was pulled off by my little ninja, which slowed my typing substantially, but then my power cord broke, rendered my computer totally useless, until the replacement arrived; which it did, today.  So, this is going to be a long blog, with hopefully, shorter sentences than that last monster.

Things have settled into a new routine since Andor started waking up earlier. He’s awake at almost exactly the same time every morning, 6:15 or a little later. We get up and go play next door at Sip and Kranz at 7:00. An oatmeal and a coffee later, we come home around 9:00 when he nurses and sleeps for about an hour. It’s lonely there at that time of the day because not many people are out, but we’re too loud to stay at home.

Especially since the teething started.

I noticed that Andor seemed to just be unhappy no matter what was happening. You’d be tickling him and he’d laugh, and then start this crylaugh hybrid of pathetic sadness that breaks your heart. Then he just couldn’t stay by himself for as long, and he’d crawl up my leg more and now it’s dissolved into needing me to hold him and nurse him all day. If I wear him and walk around he stays relaxed, but he seemed to be hurting.

and lo!
what was there today!
a tooth!
no wonder!
Poor tiny baby. Yep. I saw it and felt it. It’s just a little tiny thing coming from the bottom pallet. My little man is getting his little teeth!

Anyhow, I haven’t been able to make it to Isobel’s clubhouse because Andor is asleep at both times of the day that it’s open, he naps at 9 and at 3. Too bad, I enjoy going. I miss talking to the mommies.

What else. My niece isn’t coming after all. I’m disappointed that she isn’t coming, I’m more disappointed that I expected anything else. The only way to survive my family is to expect nothing, that which is true today may not be true tomorrow. The laws governing words are ignored and anything is permitted if it’s couched in a fit.

..because there is no solution, it’s all a battle or too hard, and it’s always the end of the world for the pessimist.

It’ just not my style. I see clearly now why we don’t have the easiest time getting along. I’m an optimist, a get it done, a goal reacher, and a can do. I do, do. I say I will and then I do. I like action. I believe that there is an answer. I confront problems with solutions in mind. I think that we can do anything our minds desire. (p.s. that makes me a nut job, just so you all know).

I know that feeling fear will hurt you and make you feel sick, so I avoid fearing and worrying. Cal once told me that if I was going to try to predict the future, then I ought to at least predict success, rather than failure.  I’ve learned that it is better that way.

So they say the world is going to end, and I say it’s just beginning and our relations are thusly strained and impossible.   It’s impossible, if we’re all trying to be healthy, and honest. Coming to that conclusion is a load off, let me just say. You can only help those that want to be helped, all the rest just get defensive, especially for the pessimist.

Let’s just move on.

What’s next. Well, the fall is here and the colors are so beautiful. I’ve taken a zillion pictures of the leaves, which are so enchanting. Vivid reds, yellows, and oranges, it’s breath taking. I feel so romantic when the cold air goes into the trees and showers down those beautiful leaves onto the lush green grass in the park. So cool.

Did I use thusly?  Do I even know what that means?

Andor is amazing. Besides the tooth, he is crawling and he thinks that crawling up the stairs at the coffee shop is a blast. There is nothing cooler than watching an infant come along. He gets so excited and animated. Its brilliant. I am having the time of my life.  Nothing beats babies.

I’ve got to go pick up and go to sleep.
Thanks for reading.