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Such a good year.
December 26, 2009


I’ve been thinking a lot about what a wonderful year it has been for me and how grateful I am for it.

I got to stay home and be a mother to my little monkey baby. We moved into a bigger space that is much closer to where Cal works so we see him much more. Abra, George, and I organized and implemented a garden with smashing success. I discovered an abandoned community garden a couple of blocks away from the new place that I will get to fill with herbs and salad greens this coming Spring. Abra had her perfect little baby, at home, beautifully and I got to be there! My birthday party was so nice, and the food was great. I made two new friends! This Christmas was by far the best one yet. It was so relaxing and I got to spend it with family.  There are many other things that I can’t think of right now and Andor is calling for me to come play.

Here is to another great year! I love you all and am thankful for you.

Where have you been?
December 6, 2009

I don’t blog even a little bit these days. My life has been taken over by this beautiful little man, and I make no apologies for it. I spend most of my time making sure that he is happy and the rest of the time getting somewhere that will make him happy! Our lives just don’t really support much of the sedentary, and when it does, I choose to take a hot bath, or order groceries online. I hardly even take any pictures anymore because of the time that it takes to post them, edit them, etc.

However, about a month ago, Andor started taking very substantial naps around noon and I have been able to do a little bit of sitting around (although I ought to be working out to try and ditch these last 10 pounds), and I have opened a site on Etsy!

I need for us to have about $200 more a month in income so that I can have health insurance. I can’t go on without that safety net any longer and I’m hoping that I can make at least that on Etsy each month. I feel very uneasy with the idea that one sickness could wipe us out financially! Cal and Andor are covered and I just play the odds. I think it might be part of my anxiety.

Anyhow..that’s the deal. I’m making jewelry and selling some pristine vintage items on Etsy and I hope you visit my site.

Otherwise, we are really settling into our new place. Cal lives really close to work now and can walk there! We have so much more time with him now! It’s nice. Andor is growing, talking, running, climbing, jumping, and bossing! I love it! He’s so handsome I can hardly stand it. I want to eat him up all of the time. I savor these moments and know that they go by so quickly! He reads a million books a day and seems to get new words/phrases all of the time. All of his eye teeth are about to break through. Toilet training will be here soon.

Some bits and pieces…Cal is going to start school again. I am going to look at how much it will cost to cap my front tooth at the end of December. Gluten free is really working for our family. Routines are the way to go.

Go and visit my Etsy and tell me what you think!

September 28, 2009

This summer, originally uploaded by CamilleRynd.

It’s been a while since I’ve written, I suppose that I’m getting used it, but I think about my poor neglected blog all of the time. I’m sure that as Andor gets more independent, I’ll have more time to write. As of now, we spend most of our time out of the house running around parks. He doesn’t like being at the house unless he has a friend with him. We’re working on that.

This summer has been busy busy busy. We have moved from the Pearl, and then moved again. That’s a long story, and I won’t bother telling it. Suffice it to say, we’re happier with our new place and we’ll be staying here for a long while.

Abra had Olivine, a perfect little darling girl. Her birth was beautiful. I got to film and photograph the whole thing. You can see the final moments here
It was utterly beautiful. You can hear me nearly break down, I’m a little wimp for beautiful moments. I love the picture of her big brother holding her in the picture above.

We also went camping for the first time since Andor was born!! It was a blast. Andor had the best time throwing rocks into the river and sleeping in the tent. When we woke up in the morning he looked up and exclaimed, “trees!!” He loved helping me build a fire by gathering sticks and kept a very respectful distance from the flame, commenting, “” again and again. We went hunting for chantrelles but didn’t really end up with much, maybe a gallon. Grandpa Gibson gave us a half a flat because he felt sorry for our sad attempt. We got to spend a little time with him and Andor thought that the chickens were super cool! He spent most of the time there picking berries and eating them. I can’t wait for us to go out again. Cal and I sat and stared at the sky as the stars came out. It was beautiful. I love the quiet of the woods and the majesty of the night sky when it isn’t blotted out by the city lights.

I still have a little pregnancy weight to work off. I may not get rid of it entirely until Andor weans, and that’s fine really. We are finally attempting to night wean. Last night was the first night and Andor was very resistant to the idea. Hopefully tonight will be better. I won’t wean him entirely until much later though. I just need to get some sleep at night. He wakes up a lot sometimes and I get no rest at all. No bueno.

Anyhow, I’m going to throw myself a birthday party this year. I haven’t EVER had a birthday party and I think it’s time. I get at least one right? I mean, I’ve gone out with friends, etc, but never a real party! I want one!

I look forward to the challenge that this winter will bring trying to keep Andor occupied without going to the park twice a day.

Gotta go or I won’t have time for a bath!!

Looking forward to the sun!
April 16, 2009

I can’t even describe how badly I want the weather to be nice again! Early this month the sun came out, full blast, and we all packed up and went down to the Square and had a day of sun and relaxation! It was lovely. Andor played and played and played. Of course, the weather went back to it’s normal cold and rainy and we went back to being inside and waiting out the rain with books and snacks and rolling cars around on the floor. Ho hum …

It’s supposed to be nice and sunny this weekend, so, we’ll see,

We’re all settled in to the new place now. We had Cal’s parents over for a little dinner of artichokes, salad, mussels, and blueberry gallette to break it in officially. Next I’ll have to have a little get together/ house warming party. My friends have to actually be available though. I’ll poll later on facebook to see if people are available next week

What else? Andor has started to do kiss sounds..mmuuuuumua! He also stands at the door waving, indicating that it’s time to go outside now! We went to the zoo on $2 Tuesday, and he tried to hug the big Amazon fish, while he cooed, “woooaaa, wooaaa”. He likes fish. The big cats were a hit too. 🙂

Soon enough, the sun will be blazing and I will be watching Andor splash in the water fountains!

That’s the update.

Andor is waking up and I need to go.

More later.

Unresolved and Solving
March 14, 2009

Here we are, three months into the new year and my poor ignored resolutions are yet to be reached. Blogging twice a week isn’t impossible, but I choose to read or play with my son when I have the time. I’m just not motivated to write that much. I think I ought to change the resolution to read: to blog at least twice a month! That is more realistic. Also loosing ten more pounds has turned into 15 because I seem to have put on a little weight since Andor started eating more solids! It’s a trap! I want to keep the food he doesn’t eat from being wasted, so I eat it! It’s no good, and If I keep it up I’ll be sorry. Eat less move more is my mantra. When we move into the new space it will be a lot easier to work out everyday, that and this summer the baby will be running around and I can chase him! I know I can take this weight off, I just have to be mindful. That’s enough about resolutions.

Andor is walking. He gave up on crawling almost all together and walks around looking so thrilled about it. I think it’s awesome. He is also getting the teeth next to his two front teeth and frozen blueberries seem to be the only thing he really wants to eat. I don’t blame him, they’re yummy. The sweater jacket he’s wearing in this picture is his new favorite thing. He points at it, barks “that” and when I give it to him he wanders around with it, sometimes pressing it to his cheek lovingly. I’m not sure what it is about the thing. It’s a vintage I picked up at the bins. He oves it. He knows that it’s his, and perhaps he associates it with going outside. I don’t know.

So, we move out of this tiny little place on the 28th, and into a 2 bedroom that is nearly three times the size of our current apartment. It will be just a few minutes from Cal’s work in Beaverton. We will be so happy with more space and to have Cal home more. Andor really really loves hanging out with his daddy, and well, so do I. I can’t wait to get to know the neighborhood. I have spent a little time in google maps looking for a few things, but I’m much better at exploring in person. There are many asian markets in the area that i can’t wait to check out. Also, the library and a couple of parks are close.

Anyhow, these days are spent slowly packing and cleaning and organizing and playing with Andor. I love being able to take my time to pack up the house, and go through everything. I can stop everything and entertain Andor or go for a walk or cook and not sweat it. It’s nice. It’s pretty amazing how much stuff we have packed into this tiny space and how little of it is used because it’s in perpetual storage.

That will change in the new place! The next blog will be after we’ve moved in and there will be many pictures!

My Best Friend’s Wedding
February 16, 2009

These photos and this blog were a long time coming, but they’re here! I can’t even describe how well the wedding went, despite the weather nearly causing many tempers to be tested and chain application challenged! All went well, no one fainted or gave drunken toasts, the food was good and the staff was very helpful.

We were at the Bonneville Day Spa in Washington, accommodations were perfect and very comfortable, and we spent the night after the wedding lounging in the hot tub outside, surrounded by snow drifts and cool fresh air. It was very nice.

So, now that the pictures are in, we can pour over the memories, and decided which one of these things to print. I think this picture is a candidate for printing for my wall for sure.

Good times and so forth
February 7, 2009

This year, so far, has been great. Day by day I get more and more used to being exclusively a mom, and lose a little of the guilt of not being at work everyday. It’s tough when you’ve been made to believe that a person’s worth is merely what they can earn in dollars. I work on it a little every day. Whenever I feel the feeling start to creep up, I look at my beautiful, relaxed, happy son and my clean apartment, and know that I oughtn’t feel even a little guilty.

I chopped my hair, the choice was to perm it again (too expensive) or cut it off. So I cut it. It looks nice. Short hair really looks the best on me anyway. I look fresh and clean and modern once again.

What else. Andor is still a little pea. He’s 28 inches and 18 pounds. A little guy. He comes in at the 17th percentile in height and the 3rd percentile in weight on the World Health Organizations Exclusively Breast Fed Growth Chart. He is meeting and exceeding all of his milestones. He has a few signs already: all done, more, hi, hot, and pointing at what he wants. Pretty darn good for a ten month old 🙂

Cal and I are discussing the size of our apartment. It’s really really small and we are close to outgrowing it. Perhaps we will end up nearer to his work by the end of the year. Beaverton Ahoy! Keep your eyes peeled for me .. ok? Something on the Max line, no more than $600, near Millikan and Murray.  I’m not too thrilled to have to leave my precious pearl, but, size does matter in this case.  We have 6 months of weather that just isn’t fit for a toddler.

Nothing else is really all that new.

More later.

Hello 2009!
January 1, 2009


2008 is over and another year has just begun!

The last year was, in some ways, the most difficult, and in some ways the most wonderful year so far in my life. I learned to finally let go of the notion that I can change anyone other than myself, a painful realization for someone like me, who really wants to help others find their joy. On the other hand, I learned that I can choose a happy family and friends, my own happiness, and my own well being! How beautiful a lesson to learn, and how much richer my life will be for it!

Now on to the new years resolutions!

I will:
Lose ten pounds
Create and stick to a schedule
Blog at least twice a week
Get more involved in my community.

Those things are within reach, reasonable, and throughly wonderful resolutions.

What about you? Any resolutions?

Got Advice?
November 1, 2008



Relax, I’m not pregnant again.

Many of you have asked for me to pass along some baby information, so here it is.

Books, articles, and videos about birth, babies, and being parents:


The Continuum Concept by Jean Liedloff
Natural Childbirth the Bradley Way by Susan McCutcheon-Rosegg
Hypnobirthing by Marie F. Mongan
The Baby Book by William Sears

Touch and Human Sexuality by Robert W. Hatfield, Ph.D.
Parenting from the Inside Out by by Daniel Siegel

The Business of Being Born a video 

Before you get pregnant, figure out how to stay home for the first few years of his or her life.  Your baby deserves to be raised by you!

Also, some basic advice.

Use midwives, avoid the medical birth/pregnancy.

Have your baby at home, or have a doula with you at hospital.

Get educated about birth and the process your body goes through.

Eat well, exercise and relax.

Chant .

Avoid frilly baby clothes, they are not practical.

Breast feed and co-sleep, you’ll sleep better and be more relaxed.

Take pictures of your belly growing.

Listen to your intuition, avoid too much intervention.

Get a sling, but wait until the baby is born, he or she will have a preference. I went through many types before I found one that worked.  Touch is paramount, babies belong in arms, not plastic containers.

Once you start showing, ladies will try and share their sometimes scary birth stories with you. Ask them politely to wait until you have your own story to share before they go on. Expecting to be scared and in pain can increase the likeliness of fear and pain.

Relax, your baby is probably fine, obsessing will not help anyone.

But many things second hand, they grow fast!


If any of you have any additional advice please feel free to comment!

These moments
October 9, 2008

When I found out I was pregnant, I knew that my life would change.

These moments say it all.

A Stomach Virus, Dirty Wood Floors, and a Baby Squirrel
August 21, 2008

My sister and I are in the process of getting to know each other. After Andor was born, she decided to come and visit so that we could learn more about each other.

And how.

I won’t tell the whole story because, quite frankly, I don’t want to re-live the whole thing. It was tense for me. I have a lot of unresolved issues surrounding her, my mother, and pretty much all other family from both sides. I wanted for her to relax and enjoy my beloved city.

I didn’t give up the feeling that I had some control over her feelings until a little later than I ought to have, but who’s counting.

Either way the entire trip was blessed by Murphy himself.

She and the girls got the stomach virus and was pretty much sick for the first few days, the condo I got her was impossible, the wood floors were hyper sensitive and had to be kept clean or they would scratch, it was impossible to regulate the heat, the day we visited the tide pools in Newport, was literally one of the worst days of the year to go, the sea life was four feet under and unable to be viewed, the beach was windy and cold, the washing machine and dryer in the condo wrinkled all her clothes, rendering most of her clothes unwearable…etc.

And there really is an etc.

I really felt like every complaint that she had was my fault, of my doing somehow. I felt like I was a miserable hostess, and that…nevermind, that part I need to chew on more.

Either way…the food I made was really good, Cal was an amazing uncle, complete with t-rex claws for the girls, the view from The Civic is awesome, the Japanese Gardens rule, OMSI has a great dinosaur exhibit, the coast is still rainy and cold and beautiful, Andor is amazing, and growing, and I love the day to day again. And we saw a baby squirrel.

Portland is my favorite.
My little family is all that I need.
I am brave and so is my sister.
My best friend is beautiful.
To be continued.

June 21, 2008

This is going to be written as long as Andor is resting or occupied. Here goes.

Surgery is behind me. My body is fully functioning and normal. My linea negra is still quite dark and runs the length of my torso and down the back of each leg. My hair is still quite full and hasn’t begin to fall out. My arms are getting stronger every day from holding the baby. I dance and walk and stretch for exercise. I am still hanging on to about fifteen extra pounds, which reminds me to eat healthy and walk.

I’ve settled into a routine that I like. Andor, of course, is the center of my universe right now, so everything hinges on him. He’s so easy going that I can do anything I choose, really. He remains happy, healthy, and even tempered. I enjoy him every minute.

Had I not read so much about attachment parenting, however, I think I would be exhausted, bitter, and half insane.

Andor sleeps with us, I breast feed him on cue, I respond to his cries within seconds, I wear him during the day, and we have been practicing infant potty training. Through this style of parenting I have discovered that each one of his little cries mean something, and he feels confident that I will satisfy his needs. So, he’s relaxed, happy and learning (and so am I).

I fall deeper in love with him and his dad every day.

That’s all the time I have, gotta run and play with a tiny baby.